God loves us even when we are at our worst
There was a woman at church who I felt God had put us together. There was a bond between us that was real and was of God. However, one time this woman would be friendly and loving toward me but the next she had a wall up that felt like an iceberg. After several times of running into this wall I finally got to the point that I was ready to throw in the towel and just stay away from her. One night after service I gave her a hug and told her I loved her. She made some smart remark and walked away. On the drive home I kept thinking about this and kept getting madder and madder. When I got home I tried calling her and it made me even madder because she wouldn’t even answer my call. My first response was to tell God I didn’t want anything more to do with her.
I have learned to give my feelings to God and not carry them around, weighing me down and affecting my walk with Him. I gave God my hurt and anger and went off to bed. The next morning I felt God show me how He has dealt with me when I treated Him the way this woman was acting toward me. When I had been abused, mistreated and thrown away by the world, He loved me. No matter what, God never gave up on me. Even during all the years God was healing me from the abuse and I hated everyone who had mistreated me, God continued to love me. Many times, when I was at my worse, God would bless me and let me know He loved me. He was not going to quit and give up on me. He loved me. Even though nobody else in the world loved me, God did.
Before I had gone to bed the night before, I had asked God what He wanted me to do about this situation. After showing me how He has continued to love me, I felt He told me I was to continue to love this woman and continue to do spiritual warfare on her behalf. She was healing from abuse in her life and she needed someone to love her and not give up on her just like I had needed someone to love me.
God also brought a young man to work where I work and is using this young man to teach me not everybody in the world is like those who have abused me. Not everybody is like my parents who molested me and then passed me around to everybody else to do the same to me as they had done. Not everybody is like my ex-husband who used me as his whipping post when he got frustrated and angry or would deliberately hurt me just for his fun and amusement. God told me he was going to use this young man to show me there are people who are kind and loving. I have watched this man to see if he was for real. I keep waiting for Dr. Jekyll to show up. But he hasn’t. This man has been consistently the same kind, loving person that he was from the first time I met him. I want God to use me like that.
1 John 4:11; Beloved, if God so loved us, we ought also to love one another.
Galatians 2:20; I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me.
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